Bridesmaids Dresses
by Alyssa Troy
These robes, I fear, are relics that reserve
little sentiment for me.
I still have visions of the tape measure that
dressed my body before them,
snaking itself around my chest, my waist,
and my thighs,
slowly suffocating me until I collapsed under
the pressure I applied to myself.
I never felt welcome in these garments.
While listening to my friends exchange promises
of love, I stood there, stabbing my
stomach with a bouquet, trying to murder my
insecurities. I worry they can never die.
Now I stand in my closet, glancing over
the gowns of autumnal colors,
knowing quite well that if I slipped into one,
I’d be swimming in satin,
grieving the figure I sacrificed just to remain
unsatisfied with the martyr in the mirror.
Alyssa Troy is an English teacher in Bucks County, Pennsylvania. She has a B.A. in English and Secondary Education from Rider University, an M.Ed. in Curriculum, Instruction, and Assessment from Cabrini University, and an M. Ed. in Reading from Eastern University. She will be featured in an upcoming issue by the Blue Unicorn Journal, and her first book Transfiguration was self-published in 2020.