Father, the Games We Play
by Larissa Larson
Were you happy when you found out
it was me? Not born biological boy but
girl bloom from her womb, your young
hands cradling this bald, mucus babe
bawling for the first time. I know you
cried as you do now after 30 years of
goodbye hugs to kindergarten to college
to only holiday visits. You had three
older sisters, so tenuous, but were you ready
for me? Your DNA duplicate, carbon
copy of an offspring. I think I was ready
for you, my eyes the same rain-soaked
blue. Our favorite game was monster,
extreme hide & seek. You’d hide and
I’d try to find you in the dark corners
of our house, but before I could claim
my victory, you’d jump out, teeth bared
and tickling talons prepared to trap. O I loved
how you scared the shit out of me. Was it
the same for you? Laughing in the face of
monstrosity, not knowing when I’d find
you or that you would see the real me?
Larissa Larson (she/they) is a queer poet who lives in the Twin Cities and recently received their MFA in Creative Writing. They have served on the editorial board of award-winning literary journals such as Water~Stone Review, Runestone Literary Journal, and The Briar Cliff Review.. Larissa works at a used bookstore, explores the many lakes with their partner, and watches scary movies with their cats, Athena and Midas. Their poems have appeared in Gyroscope Review, Welter Online, Sheila-Na-Gig, Kelp Journal, and forthcoming in Great Lakes Review.